I’ve been
feeling so stuck in my journey, my virtual travel adventure, my healthy
exercise playtime. If I can’t exercise
enough to make virtual travel mileage, I can’t continue my online explorations
& blogging. I don’t want my medical
recovery to take over all of my time & energy & mental exertions
either.
My journey feels stymied. Dead in the water.
I keep
thinking about the scene in Monty Python & the Holy Grail in which the
plague dead are being carted away, but one man insists that he’s not dead &
not yet ready to go. He’s probably near
death, but in his efforts to stay with the living he declares more & more
healthy optimism.
The Dead
Collector: Bring out yer dead.
[a man puts
a body on the cart]
Large Man
with Dead Body: Here's one.
The Dead
Body That Claims It Isn't: I'm not dead.
The Dead
Collector: What?
The Dead
Body That Claims It Isn't: I'm not dead.
The Dead
Collector: 'Ere, he says he's not dead.
Large Man
with Dead Body: Yes he is.
The Dead
Body That Claims It Isn't: I'm not.
The Dead
Collector: He isn't.
Large Man
with Dead Body: Well, he will be soon,
he's very ill.
The Dead
Body That Claims It Isn't: I'm getting better.
Large Man
with Dead Body: No you're not, you'll be
stone dead in a moment.
The Dead
Body That Claims It Isn't: I don't want to go on the cart.
Large Man
with Dead Body: Oh, don't be such a
baby.
The Dead
Collector: I can't take him.
The Dead
Body That Claims It Isn't: I feel fine.
Large Man with
Dead Body: Well, can you hang around for
a couple of minutes? He won't be long.
The Dead
Body That Claims It Isn't: I think I'll go for a walk.
Large Man
with Dead Body: You're not fooling
anyone, you know.
The Dead
Body That Claims It Isn't: I feel happy. I feel happy.
It’s a
ridiculous scene, and it doesn’t end well for the sick man, but I sometimes
feel myself putting on this kind of song & dance act for the doctors,
saying “Don’t write me off.” Don’t throw
me into the category of Invalid Patient with nothing left to do but nurse
myself along from treatment to checkup.
A good
friend reminds me that I have dealt with earlier tribulations by finding
creative & subversive ways around obstacles. I am definitely taking care of myself
medically & emotionally, but I’m also looking for ways to move forward in
my projects.
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